High Blood

Confession(s)

I wasn’t surprised at all upon knowing that I have nasal polyps again. For the past weeks, I went back to smoking. After shift, a stick is good enough to relieve me from stress. Although this is not on a daily basis, I know it still has an effect on my condition.

Yes, I lied. I’ve been telling you I am no longer smoking. And I blame secondhand smoke for being sick. I’m sorry. I know you’ll get mad. Sorry for not telling the truth… But, I feel like I cannot totally quit.

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After shift, I decided to have my throat checked. This unbearable pain I have is a huge problem for my work. I am a call center agent and of course, I need to talk to people for hours over the phone.

My nose, throat and ears were then checked—and there you go, I have nasal polyps AGAIN. Added to this, I am having a reflux larryngitis. At that very moment, I was saddened by the fact that I need to spend money on meds (or operation, if it requires) again. Well, I know that this is not as serious as cancer but I have a family to support and I won’t withdraw all my money just for these damn health issues. I can still handle them, anyway.

I don’t know but I still can’t accept that now, I will add a burden on our family’s current situation.